Hi all, I'm partially writing in response to wavybrains to wrote very similar to what I felt. Just figured I wouldn't kidnap her thread with my own whining.
I think it's a year later, since I found this forum/book, etc. I had some very small initial success but that was shortlived when I started down the path to daily anxiety issues that was enough for me to back off.
My health has not always been good, so not surprising. (I"m 43 and mom of 7, so I know I've got my fair share of 'stuff'.)
My legs have been weak for 10 years since I had gallbladder surgery. I just cannot seem to get any strength in my legs.
I've since found out I have gluten intolerance (went GF 6mths ago), low blood sugar issues leading to my anxiety, and caused by adrenal fatigue (though I'm waiting on confirmation on the AF).
I'm a 22w, and with all the low blood sugar issues, and trying to stave off the anxiety attacks that come (was severe for a bit) I've had to eat high protein stuff all day, and have gained 10 pounds already! To make things worse, bloodwork shows I am low in B12, Low iron, Low Vit D, Low cholestrol and we are testing to see if these levels are coming up from my malabsorption or if it is more severe.
I can see how it was Ttapp that dug up all this stuff. For which I am so thankful. It's been a roller coaster ride. But, I'm just at a loss where to go from here.
I'm starting to worry my 250lbs and what it is doing to my health. My front stomach is hanging out even more due to the extra pounds behind it. I had gallbladder surgery 12 yrs ago, with an incision right above my belly button and I have a signifigant protruding from belly button to lower ribs ? Literally all muscle connect lost to belly. What can I do about that ?
That is my most bothersome issue right now, but overall it's everything else.
I've been on a journey here and discovered I procrastinate, have trouble making decisions and am just trying to get control of my life.
I have 3 daughters that have abandoned our family. (long story) and 4 boys left at home, 3 with autism, so my life is not without stress! I also work from home to bring in our money just to support us. I take care of my elderly mother, and am still nursing my 2 year old. (sweet joy of mine).
BlessedMama on here directed me last year to AF info and Dr. Wilson's website and such. I've taken his questionnaire and came out moderate. With my blood sugar issues it's what lead me to see this connection.
My question or many are:
I know God has his plan for us all, and perhaps that even means I may be this size for this reason. (all my mothers family are in the 300 Plus range!)
With genetic testing I've seen that my family had this GF gene too, which causes belly fat.
But, at 43, what can I do ?
Is there any chance at all that I might loose this weight? (I read lack of Vit D will prevent weight loss)
What ttapp can I do, when I'm so afraid of burning myself out ? I have to be so careful as extra energy spent leaves me weak and shaky some days, but not all.
I know I shouldn't be impatient, but will I be able to have any success now ?
I'm taking all kinds of supplements and added magnesium for the AF.
(B12, Vit C, Multi, Alpha Lipoic, MSM, Omega 3,6,9, Iron)
Is there any hope for me at all ? Is there any talks, links, advice to adrenal fatigue and ttapp that can help us understand the connection more ? How to work with it ?
What is it that is 'holding' fat on my body ? I just literally can't drop weight at all. It just loves me. And I look at one of my sisters bursting at over 300lbs now and shudder. My aunts were in the 500lb range so I've got alot to look forward too.
I try to eat natural, we are all GF. Not alot of processed food ever really. The odd thing here and there maybe.
I'm trying to look at everything in my life.
I"ve been procrastinating starting Ttapp. Partly I feel is lazy ? (or is that tired from my AF) ? and partly because I"m afraid of failing. When I can't see progress, well, you know. I was brushing faithfully for months but then fell out of that habit when I was most severe and tired at Christmas. Couldn't even peel potatoes my arms were so weak.
I've been trying to do KLT at night before bed, so it woudln't burn me out. I started at 40seconds max. And am up to 100seconds. I do feel a bit stronger doing it, but not in my regular day, like going up stairs.
I try to do ribs up, belly button to back when I remember and driving. (I've got low muscle tone and poor posture).
Oh before I make this a book, I'm just going to stop here, and see what advice you all have for me. I so love Theresa and all she's done for us. I just pray there is some hope for me and my size and health so I can be here for my boys for a long time, and wait out when my daughters one day return to us.