Hi, everyone... I am restarting T-Tapp after starting and stopping for YEARS. This is the time that I will finally DO IT and stick with it. Hoping I can find some "buddies" who will kick me when I am not doing that I should!
I first heard about T-Tapp many years ago. I had the VHS tapes if that tells you anything. As with many other times in my life, I started it and then quit. Life got in the way, had kids, etc. Fast forward to today.
I am 38 years old with 3 kids. I had always been a bubbly, outgoing go-getter personality until May 2009. At the time, I was working in corporate real estate. I was doing well when suddenly I started having debilitating panic attacks. They were so bad that I went to the hospital twice by ambulance from work. One time I was in a staff meeting and they had to call 911 because my heart was racing and I started crying. Talk about embarrassing. By November 2009, I could no longer work because I panicked each and every day. It was AWFUL.
I came home and started an online business to make ends meet. I thought I would get my health together but instead I have become semi-agoraphobic. I hate to leave the house for fear of feeling anxious. I have not driven at all in well over a year. I used to be so independent that I could have driven to another state without any problem. Now I cannot go to the grocery store. I even missed my 20 year high school reunion last week (which was less than 20 minutes from my home) because I just could not make myself do it.
We homeschool our kids, and they see this anxiety in me all the time. It is heart wrenching to feel like you are doing damage to your kids. I don't want them to have the same issues when they are my age.
I have been to numerous doctors including a few cardiologists who have all told me that my heart is ok but is deconditioned. I am about 50 pounds overweight and have never really exercised. I KNOW I need to exercise, but the thought of my heart rate going up TERRIFIES me. I also have mild asthma, so when you couple those two things together, exercise feels bad. I also have digestive issues (possible Crohns) that keep me even more anxious.
I guess I am looking for someone locally who could maybe coach me in some way or do a one on one with me to see if I can get on track. I am truly at my wits end because I feel like no one has been able to help me. I have all the T-Tapp tools I need, but I am scared to get started I guess....
Any words of wisdom would be such a blessing right now.... I have never had a lot of girlfriends (always guys LOL) so I would love to have some ladies on my side who will encourage me and push me to do something good for ME.