poor, poor me

[aj]

Posting here for my own pitty party. I wanted a job so bad and I did not get a call back today. I telling myself that it was a want not a need. But I still feel bad. I know if I weren't so heavy I would already have the job. I want to go eat, but that isn't going to get anywhere. I can't talk with my boyfriend. He will just tell all the things I need to hear, but I'm in a middle a pity party for myself and I am not ready to hear it.

I have a plan. I will work harder to get healthier.

Thanks for reading. I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow. God Bless everyone.

-April